Now I can not remember his name or how old we were when it happened. I just remember it all vanished in just a few seconds. All that fought for years was shattered and lost in the abyss, was lost forever.
"Sorry ... I sweetened
As her voice, she wrapped between wings of unbreakable glass.
"I'll be good, I promise. I'll let you study and not bother you again.
And there I was, with that stupid naivete that made me fall in solitude for many years.
"I love you.
I could never understand. If both want me, if I had given everything, if there sacrificed many scholarships for being by my side. Why would so why leave me so lonely and depressed in this cold place full of people it did not know.
"I love you too.
And the tears came, the tears that always made me so weak and fragile.
my nana's arms covered me and held me for not running after him, hoping no physical force, and believe that it would reach with just the power of my body.
He gave me a last look was a look of teen blue eyes child. As if we were still starting out, as if there was still a future.
I saw him board the plane, one large and imposing. Next to that plane, which carried most of my life, I looked like a weakling be negligible and, as a complete nobody.
"Do not go ...
My faint whispers were in vain, he will not hear me, I saw, did not see how I clung to the empty cage of my little canary that had died that day.
-Do not leave me ...
pleaded not contain my tears, not hold back my feelings or my emotions.
And then I ran. With what was left of my strength I pushed my nana and left behind the empty cage next to my now defunct bird.
felt my legs apart in each step, I felt that my skin was separated from my body. He felt he had a big part of me, my heart. Like his arms was the first time my body on his bed.
I wanted to scream, to say everything, to say how many times taught me to be yours. Screaming that I never will belong to another and expect it, forever, for life.
But I did not, because I knew it was a lie. Because he also taught me to be happy. And if my life was going in the hopes of seeing him again, just suffer and my heart would turn black with grief and sadness.
then fell to the floor while flying the plane rose and closed my eyes trying to imagine his face, so sweet and peaceful, like when I met him at boarding school.
-back soon ... Before it's too late.
Still, never came back.
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