Después de un par de tequilas, después de ese mecanismo de olvido instantáneo nos entregábamos el uno al otro… pero todo era físico, solo placer físico.
Fueron dos años y algo más en esta relación clandestina. Yo no deseaba nada más, no tenía necesidad de formalizar lo nuestro o sacarlo a la luz… Esto era para mí solo un pasatiempo.
—Me voy. —dijo mientras se abotonaba la camisa.
- ..., lit a cigarette and just nodded.
cigarette smoke mixed with air and pleasantly distorted my sense of smell. I heard the door close, and after a couple of minutes I heard the engine of his car ... he was gone.
was used to this routine: Tequila, sex, cigarettes ... and then to work.
am a teacher in a school. I hate the noise that always make my students can not stand the sonseras of these immature kids talk ... no, cry. But I am still teaching there, the pay is good.
-Andrew.
- What?
- ... Did you finish and your class?
"Yes.
- ... "I watched so carefully.
- What? He raised an eyebrow.
"Nothing. "And he smiled.
- Stop looking at me ... well, I get stressed.
-Andrés.
- What? -Buffet with discomfort.
- ... Are we going for a drink?
- ... "I hesitated when asked "What?
"A drink.
- ...
Julian is also a school teacher, actually went to college together, but never got along quite well.
He see that you are not drinking very often. "Laughed while enduring his weight up the stairs.
"Shut up ... You and your damn mouth! -Was much more drunk than me, that was obvious.
-silent or wake up your neighbors. I whispered, laughing.
- In miierda these children!
- Where are your keys?
- ...
- Julian!
- ... What miierda want?
"Do not sleep on my shoulder. Give me your keys.
- ... "Suddenly he began to laugh like crazy," You want my ass?
- What?
"Okay, okay ..." He took the key ring of one of his pockets give you what you want.
Laughing and barely able to keep opened up the door by a roar.
"You're so scandalous.
- ... Kiss me. He said as he closed the door behind him.
- ...
"I know you want to kiss me, Andrew.
"You're wrong.
again began to laugh excessively.
"I know you're gay.
- ... "I was firm.
- What's with that sissy with that salt? Is it good? ... Who fucks who? ... Is it big? ... "He continued laughing must have the huge! ... You know? He has the face for putting.
I refrained and I hit a punch, fell to the floor and screamed in pain.
Who thought it was? Who was believed miierda ?!... Speaking well of ...
- ... Do you mind? - Stood holding on to a sofa that abounded in the room. - Do you mind to talk like your little boyfriend? ... Would love this fag?
- ... - Love it?
-Andrew, I know ... "He touched his chest repeatedly, ... I know.
- ... - now what she was talking about?
"I know you want to fuck me ..." came up, staggered-Fuck me! He shouted at the ceiling, like a madman "I do not put resistance.
- ... Julian, you're drunk. Go to sleep.
I walked away from him and headed for the door but he grabbed my arm.
- Is not this what you wanted? "He frowned indignantly, I guess.
- ... Listen, you do not like you. -So I pushed her away.
- What kind of gay are you?! Go to miierda fucking fag! Normally
Julian is an educated, handsome, admired even by the school principal, a clear example for students.
Damned.
Now I know how after a few drinks I hate even more, it's a damned hypocrite.
Arriving at my apartment spotted an elusive shadow among shadows. It was him.
"You're late. She whispers.
- ...
- Have you drunk?
"Yes.
- ... Are you tired?
"Yes.
- ... So you have good night. -Walked into the room.
I took him by the elbow right away, and stared at him.
- ... But not for you. "I let go" ... for you I'm never tired.
-reek of alcohol. -Me looked with a strange pity.
- ... are you not?
"I've had today.
- Why? - We walked around the waist with one of my arms.
- ... I want to quit. Said loosened his tie.
- ... "I laughed a little, but seeing his face serious and steady gaze I stopped my stupid laugh Do you speak seriously?
-Absolutely.
That night we did on the couch for the first time. Embriagábamos always together, or each on its side and then we were in the same bed. But this time the only thing was I had drunk, he was totally sober.
I sensed that something was different, it felt really different.
Was it because we did in the room?
Was it because he was not drunk?
Was it Julian?
Something ... something was definitely different.
The atmosphere was sweet.
In the morning my eyes were opened and did not see him at my side. I looked ... I looked desperately for a cigarette but could not find. I remembered it was Saturday and I relaxed, should not going to give classes.
I lay in bed to relieve the terrible headache that was beginning to harassment. I tried but I could not sleep, my mind was saturated with memories of last night.
was something different.
His voice moaning my name over and over again, sounded different. She clung to the sofa cushions forward and then clung to my back ... I still burn your scratches. But he was really sexy. He was so pleasant, even more than any other time.
Just remember I was getting hard ... Miierda! ... I need a cigarette. A damn cigarette!
heard the door open, immediately got out of bed and left the room. There he was, had just entered, I smiled and put on the table a white bag he brought with him.
"I thought you were gone.
- ... They canceled my photo shoot.
- ... "I looked at him expectantly.
-Costume toast and jam.
- Why?
- ... I'll make coffee. "He turned to the kitchen.
-Lucius ... - I just call you by name?
- ... "He paused in the middle aisle," would have been surprised because I called him by name? - ... Or do you want orange juice? - Continued walking toward the kitchen.
- Lucius! "I took his arm tightly and forced him to watch me.
- ... "I was crying.
I let go gently. "Since he began to mourn?
- "Has anything happened in your work? Did something happen at the agency?
-No. "Was all to say trying to contain his tears.
- ... Why cancel your session?
"I do not care. "He turned around and began searching who knows what in the cupboards.
- Damn ... Why the hell are you crying?!
- ...
- Is it because you canceled your session?
- I canceled it! "He turned toward me. "The canceled, right? The gate!
- ... Why?
- ... Black coffee or milk? "He turned his back again.
- Lucius! ... I'm talking about, do not ignore me, Lucius.
- Stop saying my name ...!
- ...
"Stop calling me that. Miierda! - Threw something somewhere, could not see, I was staring at him. - ... That's not my name.
- ... I know.
"Lucius Shabelle" ... Does that sound nice? To me it sounds too flashy, theatrical ... But was not that his name was just a name artistic modeling agency where she worked forced him to use. Appeared in magazines as such, on television, in the panels in the street ... in the interviews and presented as "Lucius Shabelle"
-Andrés, one thing I must say.
- ...
"I want to ... finish. She ducked her head, looked at some fixed place in the kitchen.
- ...
- ... "He raised his eyes fearful.
- ... If you want to get away just do it.
-Andrew ...
"We're not married ... You have to ask permission or something.
I went to my room. I was not upset, there was no reason to be, could not find any. He and I were lovers only, and from the beginning I knew that this would end, it was ridiculous to think that a relationship like ours would last.
was over.
Now I understand. Through it all seemed very strange when we had sex ... How long had enough of me? ... "Had enough of me?
And I of him? Yes I had enough of him and his lonely smile was as if he could never be satisfied ... or me. I was tired of that after having sex only start and not even properly dismissed. I was tired of being called his cell phone and ran off with the excuse that it was his manager ... Your damn job. I was sick of your damn job.
It is safest to me while maintaining other relationships. I was not the only one I went to bed. My name was not the only one moaning ... I was not the only one I let him back on fire.
"What's with that sissy with that salt? Is it good? ... Who fucks who? ... Is it big? ... The must have huge! ... You know? He has the face for putting. "
Damn putt. Julian was right ...
"... Do you mind? ... Do you mind talking like your little boyfriend? ... Would love this fag? "
A love when love comes around ... but ours was not love, it was just an inordinate passion, and all that we gave were our bodies.
After a couple of tequilas ...
Who tried kidding? ...
almost desperate I went to the room, but he was not there. I went to the kitchen and find it there.
- ... "I was crying.
Sitting on the floor, leaning against the refrigerator, hugging his legs.
- Why are you crying? I asked without straying from the kitchen entrance.
- ... Never mind.
- I do not care? ... Do not you think I care? ... Miierda Why I ask you then?!
- ... Andrew.
- ... "I looked angry, he was upset ... I was upset?
"You're crying.
- What? "I touched his face, had a tear.
- Why are you crying? "Now it was he who asked.
- ...
- Why the hell are you crying?! - Stood up, wiped his face with his forearm and approached me.
"Because ... I have fear.
-Andrew ...
I do not want to miss. I do not want ...
-
Andrew ... "I have fear of losing ...
- ... Andrew!
- Because I love you! "I said.
His eyes were puzzled, was clearly stunned by what he had said.
I grabbed her cheeks and smiled very broadly as he turned to look out a few tears in his eyes.
- ... Repeat. "He whispered close to my lips.
- ... "I hesitated.
-Repeat, Andrew. Say you love me again.
- ... "I swallowed my pride again despite not being sure of many things, I said I love you.
- ... Andrew.
"I love you. Miierda do not know when it happened, but I fell in love with you.
- ...
- ... And now that I realize, you leave me like a damn ...
-I love you too, Andrew.
- ... dog.
- ... "giggled contagious with which I started laughing too.
- Is it serious?
- Yes! But I was afraid that you only saw our relationship as a hobby. Therefore I said we were done, and it hurt so much that you were to take it so lightly. "I hugged her, rubbing his right cheek on my chest.
"I was a fool. I know better than anyone, I am a proud fool.
- ... But that I love you. He looked at me with a warm smile on her face soaked.
"Tell me something. Is it for this that you're not going to drink more?
- ... "agreed.
"Then I too will leave.
- Are you sure about that?
- ... I love you. "I kissed his forehead, he had never done such a thing, I love you without a drop of alcohol in my body.
-Andrew ...
- I can call you by your name? "She smiles fun.
- What name? "She hastened to ask with some discomfort in his voice and his expression clearly uncomfortable.
- ... Your real name.
- ... "she blushed and lowered her face.
-Aldo ... "I whispered.
- not pretty, "cried shame.
"But I like to tell you so, right?
- ...-felt with a smile.
"I'm the only one who will call you so, Aldo.
-Andrés is not a nice name. Ventured to say.
- ... But my mother liked. "I defended myself as I could.
After eating toast with jam and some coffee, I told Aldo he wanted to live with him now. At that time was impressed, I noticed on his face. And I understand. What would the press of this prestigious model if they found out who is living with his gay lover?
- ... Okay.
- Are you sure? I mean. What about your job?
- ... "he smiled, resigned.
- What?
"The tequila was not all I thought about leaving.
-Aldo ... -miierda also sent to work. He laughed happily, seemed liberated "Even thought miierda send to you too. Said maintaining a wry smile.
- Hey!
"But then you know you love me ... I will not give up Tit." I took both hands.
- ... "I could not help my face red with shame that I did hear him say such a thing, you really are cheesy.
- Stupid! ... Who is he wants us to live together?
- So do not want to live with me?!
- I never said that!
- ... I've suggested.
- Liar!
a couple we probably will not free of conflict and distress, but try to be at least somewhat happy. No tequila and cigarettes. I'll get addicted to something healthy ... sex? ...
"Sex is not exactly healthy ... and also because you're addicted to it.
- Do not interrupt my thoughts!
- you who thinks out loud! Idiot!
- ...
I do Aldo addict.
- Did you hear that?
- ... "he is ignoring.
-Aldo ...
- I'll make coffee!
- Aldo!
